Happy Anniversary, Blog.

I logged in this evening to find a Happy Anniversary post from WordPress. I Speak Awanthi is two years old.

I suppose I should have thrown my blog a party, as so many people seem to do, but the real honest truth of it is that I didn’t remember.

Two years old. It’s funny; in the past, in older blogs, I’ve never really been able to go back to my posts without cringing a little. Was I really that naive? Did I really say that? Was I really that sensitive? Did that seriously make me angry enough to write a blog post about it? And did I really need to write an I-Love-You-So-Much-I’m-Going-To-Cry post to Whatsisname?

See what I mean? Cringe. Double cringe.

But I’m apparently getting older and wiser, because I can go back two years ago to the very first post in this blog and I can read the things I wrote and they are still as relevant to me today as the day that I sat down and wrote them. This is a good thing. I’m never going to stop learning, but perhaps I’ve stopped cringing.

Perhaps.

There is so much going on in my life right now. There is so much change, and as with most change, it is causing me a great deal of stress. There are a lot of places I don’t want to be at the moment, and one of those places is my life. I am tired, overworked, ill, and barely coping. I am barely holding on, and it is freaking me out. I don’t deal with uncertainty as well as I used to. I miss the woman that I was; the woman who not only dealt with uncertainty, but who decimated it. The woman who picked up her life and moved on – and on – and on – and on. I want her back. I want to stop being her shadow.

One day at a time. One blog post at a time. One change at a time. One hurdle at a time. One anniversary at a time.

Happy Anniversary, blog.

2 Comments

  • VroonMenon 14th October 2013 at 1:42 am

    Congratulations. 🙂 I think we all have a moment when we look at some of our older posts and wonder what we wrote back then. Then again. Your other blog with the recipes. Now that’s worth going back to time and again. I hope you get this phase as well. *hugs*. Congratulations once again. And please keep writing. 🙂

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    • Awanthi @ I Speak Awanthi 15th October 2013 at 12:35 am

      Aw. What a pleasure to sign in this evening and find your sweet comment. You know, one of the best things about my WordPress blog was getting to meet so many awesome people, one of whom is you! *hugs* Thank you, my friend. It is much appreciated. 🙂

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