Facebook’s ‘On this day’ feature is very helpful. On this day a year ago my ex and I became Facebook official. I guess I forgot until I tripped over it today by accident; it was just sitting there, a smug little slap in the face reminding me about how happy and hopeful and safe I felt last year at this…
I open my eyes in the cold, dark, still water, and my arms fly out from my sides as the weights in my chest expand and balloon; I tread water as I look around, frantic, turning this way and that, struggling to understand why, where, what, how, when, who. I open my mouth to suck the air in; black water…
There’s nothing straightforward about grief. There’s no set rule for you to follow. Past experiences are useless, because each loss is different. Pain is unique, andĀ it is a million times worse when you don’t understand why you have to experience it. Grief is a many-feathered thing. — Remember the first time you smile after a life-changing event. Remember it; remember…
There are moments you never see coming. Not because they don’t exist in the realm of possibility but because they couldn’t possibly happen to you; they couldn’t possibly happen in your world. Like, you could be skipping along the sidewalk as happy as you can be and suddenly two men step out of an alley you didn’t even know…
People are noticing; they are talking about how I am becoming, evolving, growing,Ā into myself; finding things I lost; remembering the person I used to beĀ before I was gone, before I slipped into the abyss. Before I broke. When I would giggle too much and for no reason about everything and nothing,Ā and when my eyes were constantly laughing because my soul…