Lymphoma? I don’t know. Nobody does yet.
I’ve had some weird symptoms going on with me for a few months; swollen lymph nodes that leak (I know; it sounds gross) from time to time, constant exhaustion and lack of energy, and an elevated body temperature.
So, I had a battery of tests done yesterday, and I’ve been poked and prodded to within an inch of my life. I’ll know on Wednesday.
If it’s not you, Cancer, I will be grateful. But if it is you, then it means that you have finally found me. The lump in my right breast turned out to be benign a few years ago, but I had to watch helplessly as you took away two people I loved very very much. I have been so afraid of you my entire life; you have terrorised my dreams and my waking moments. You scare me more than anything else ever could.
But it’s okay to be afraid of monsters; I’ll just be glad to know, one way or the other, what the matter is with me. Then I can take it in my stride and move on.
I guess me trying to reassure you would be a bit like you trying to tell me that spiders are really ok, huh? It doesn’t matter how logical or sensible it is, it just won’t get through. Just stay strong, that’s all, try to keep going, distract yourself, just live.
Thanks. I’ll be a bit better to live with once I know. Wednesday can’t come soon enough. I’ll do my best to distract myself.
Be strong.
I’m doing my best. 🙂
Hey. You results were supposed to be out today? I’ve been keeping you in my prayers. Hope everything is ok? Take care
You are so kind; thank you, Varun. It’s not cancer, but there are some weird things happening with me (like numerous benign tumours showing up in my thyroid). So I’ve got some extra tests to do and I want a second opinion, so all that is in the works. But it’s not cancer. 🙂 How are you doing?
Whatever you need, whenever you need it, I’m here for you.
Thank you, dearest.
Love You
Love you too. 🙂 Thank you.
Will keep you in my thoughts. Yes, trying to distract yourself will be a good thing. Fear is always so much worse when we have to wait for answers.
Thank you, Linda. Yes, waiting is the hardest part. 🙂 *hugs*
Distractions are always good! You are in my thoughts as we wait for Wednesday! <3
Thank you, Mel. 🙂
Oh no, take good care and I wish you good health (and good news).
Thank you, Dionne. 🙂 *hugs*
Thinking about you today…
Thank you for being so kind and checking in with me, Dionne. 🙂 You’ll be happy to know that it’s not cancer, but there are some weird things happening with me (like numerous benign tumours showing up in my thyroid). So I’ve got some extra tests to do and I want a second opinion, so all that is in the works. But it’s not cancer. 🙂 How are you doing?
What a relief…I am happy it is not cancer. But I’m sorry your body is doing some weird things. More tests and second opinions are always a good idea. As for me, I’m looking forward to some days off from work. I hope you have a wonderful new year and I hope you have a chance to rest (and write)! Cheers!
Thank you, Dionne! I hope you have a great holiday at home with your sweet family. I wish you all a wonderful new year as well; may your muse never leave you! 🙂