Author Archives : Awanthi Vardaraj

Life And Other Updates

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I know, I know, I know. It’s been a long time since I last updated. I’m sorry. I’ve been busy with so much, and I’ve been dealing with a lot. I posted a while back about my health scare. It’s not cancer, but nobody knows what it is either. I’ve been poked and prodded to within an inch of my life, and…

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The New Normal

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It was a sitcom that started like many others; an adorable couple in love at the centre of it, surrounded by a cast of family and close friends, each with their own quirks. I watched the first episode out of curiosity; I wasn’t sure if I would like it or not. Once I did watch it, I set my DVR…

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Dusk in Paris

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I’m thinking of you today, Marie. I’m thinking of the way we walked arm in arm down the Champs-Élysées, two carefree girls who felt beautiful and invincible; I remember the wonderfully strong coffee in that little café you insisted we try, and our delight at discovering the used book store above it. I remember when the skirts of my dress caught on…

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The Sunshine Pill

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I have a vitamin D deficiency, apparently. I have to take this supplement for an unspecified while, to build my body’s supplies up. I call it the sunshine pill. Look at it; double-sided, pale on one side, as orange as the yolk of a new-laid egg on the other. It’s smooth, oval, and I like to think I’m swallowing a…

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Dented, Painted, Indian, Woman

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I am all of it. I am dented by life; I am forever changed by the experiences I have had. I have been shaped as I have lived, for I have embraced life. The lessons learned were sometimes not learned, and so the learning of them was harder; my self was moulded, over and over; my heart was broken and…

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Laughter, Needed

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Everyone who knows me knows I’m a huge Dr. Who fan. We’ve been waiting on the results of the biopsy, so I’m a bit stressed and not really amused at very much, not even the antics of the cats. So my sweet, funny, and lovely boyfriend decided to lift my spirits this afternoon, and he used a technique that I’m…

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The C Scare

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Lymphoma? I don’t know. Nobody does yet. I’ve had some weird symptoms going on with me for a few months; swollen lymph nodes that leak (I know; it sounds gross) from time to time, constant exhaustion and lack of energy, and an elevated body temperature. So, I had a battery of tests done yesterday, and I’ve been poked and prodded…

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Children Are More Important Than Guns

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I have made my hatred for guns clear, but apart from watching ‘Bowling for Columbine‘, and feeling sad/shocked/horrified about the various gun-related tragedies that seem to consistently target the people of the United States, I’ve never quite voiced my opinion of US gun culture. Let me change that. I don’t think that the right to bear arms is more important…

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If

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If it was another quiver in your arrow; If it was networked into reason; If it was in every fibre of your being; If it was the dark circles around your eyes; If it was a question of your existence; If you had a chance to write your eulogy; If there was nothing left to match intensity; If you shift…

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I Run Alone

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My boyfriend and I went for a run yesterday. I don’t know; I keep telling him I hate running with him, or exercising with him in any fashion. I know it’s a way for a lot of couples to connect, but it doesn’t work with us. It’s not because I tend to be lazy about exercise unless someone is prodding…

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